Wednesday, June 22, 2011

What are you grateful for today?

I live right next to a hospital in Essex and I think I've got used to hearing ambulances zooming back and forth over the past 4 months I've lived here (in the same way that I was used to hearing police sirens when I lived in North London)..
Today, while I was doing some washing up in the kitchen, I saw an air ambulance coming in to land on the helipad - this was something I hadn't seen here and I was reminded of an accident which occurred while I was still living at my mum's house.
My mum lives next to a stretch of road where a lot of accidents happen - people tend to speed along it and often lose control of their cars and bikes..
My own uncle died in the same way on his motorbike there unfortunately.
One day my mum and I saw an air ambulance landing at the side of the road and it was only then that we noticed there had been another accident and there was a lady trapped in her car.
Apparently they had spent a long time trying to free her and her injuries were so serious that she needed to be airlifted to hospital immediately.
So back to today..
I stood at my sink for a few moments, feeling sad and so so grateful.
I said a prayer for whoever needed that air ambulance, then looked around my messy kitchen; the pile of unwashed laundry that had been bothering me, listened to my son shrieking and keeping my baby daughter awake and I felt so alive.
I know it probably sounds dramatic, but it's things like this that make me realise that I am incredibly lucky.
My chidren may be challenging and I may feel tired and out of control a lot of the time..
My house may be messy and there will always be things I need to do which I haven't gotten around to doing, but in the grand scheme of things, does it really matter?
We have our health, we have a lot of love and happiness in our lives and without those things, life would be very different for us.
Don't get me wrong - I know that day to day it is hard not to complain when things don't go the way we want them to, or when life deals us a blow and it's hard to get back up and carry on.
But when I face another challenge, I will always try to remind myself of standing in my kitchen watching that air ambulance and remember how it made me feel.

What are you grateful for today?

Hugs as always,

- Nikki xo